REAL AND RAW TRANSPARENT BLOG

I have been trying to decide on how I would come back from my time away with Jesus. Will it be a video where I share the things the Lord has been revealing to me, or will it be a nice written prophetic word with a bow wrapped around it? I have decided to do neither.

As I sit here with the Lord I feel that it is EXTREMELY important that I be real, raw, and transparent with you for those this is for. TRANSPARENCY HERE IS KEY FOR ME.

I found myself waking up in the middle of the night with the same lyrics to a song by Brian Courtney playing repeatedly in my spirit from July to now. When this first started to happen I was unaware why, and I was kind of taken back. Those lyrics are...

"IT WILL BE ALRIGHT... it will be alright.. YOU’RE GONNA MAKE IT... make it through, even in the DARKEST NIGHT... well YOU MIGHT HAVE TO CRY, but DON'T GIVE UP the fight... KNOW that this, is NOT THE END... WAIT and SEE, IT WILL BE ALRIGHT... alright." By Brian Courtney

Most of you do not know the Lord moved my son and I to California on assignment for a year. We left August 8th. From the moment I gave the Father my yes after much confirmation, I have been under attack for months.

The attacks remind me of the time the Lord told me to move back to Shreveport for those two years. The enemy literally has came after my life to stop me for good. There has been an onslaught of witchcraft attacks thrown at me, rejection from those who were supposed to help with this move by way of demonic interference, overwhelming oppression at times, and the spirit of fear trying to weigh in on me. After I thought that it couldn't get any worst I was betrayed and violated by a family member. Actively trying to steal my legacy, hinder my finances, and sabotage my life by building an altar of witchcraft against me. I was in complete denial, not being able to believe this. (THE WITCHCRAFT IS BROKEN, and the altar stands no longer in the spirit.)

When the Lord told me to go on a fast for the month of July I had no idea what all He would reveal. He EXPOSED EVERYTHING. He exposed people that I didn't even ask Him to for the sake of protecting me later. He allowed me to see the hidden hand of the enemy, but He also allowed me to see that it is vital I discern properly the Trojan horse close to me, in my personal life, so that I can discern properly on my assignments. He revealed to me not being able to discern the POSER, the deceiver up close can cause harm not only for me, but for others. He began to reveal to me there are levels to seeing. Seeing in the spirit realm, and the higher and deeper you go in with Jesus it's imperative you discern properly and move with wisdom.

In the midst of it all I had to FIGHT for a PURE HEART. I had to fight to forgive and LOVE with BOUNDARIES. I had to process my way through my emotions, and this is why the Holy Spirit is still playing the lyrics I shared earlier, because it's been dark. I hear "QUIT" everyday! "You're not going to make it!"

I AM TELLING YOU TODAY THAT IT IS BY THE GRACE OF GOD I'M STILL STANDING!

I have stated so many times there is NO HOPE OUTSIDE OF JESUS CHRIST. I have had to pray that may the GOD OF HOPE fill me with all JOY and PEACE in BELIEVING, so that by the POWER of the HOLY SPIRIT I may ABOUND in HOPE, because I have been weak and weary (Romans 15:13). It is only by divine intervention that one can keep going. It's not by my might or power, but by the might of the Holy Spirit (Zechariah 4:6). He said He will give strength to the weary and increase the power of the weak (Isaiah 40:29-31). He has had to do this for me daily! Each day has come with its own battle with the INTENT to get me to quit! I have meditated on scriptures that shares the leaders of the Bible that suffered and wanted to quit, and how the Lord showed up for them to encourage me. I need you to understand when you choose the NARROWPATH you will have these moments, and it is okay.

I have weeped before the Lord and asked, "WHY?". "Why did this person betray me?". "Why is everything so hard for me?". I said to Him, "I am being attacked and tested ALL at the same time." As I sat there He said to me... "I HAVE MADE FOR MYSELF A WARRIOR."

The attacks allowed, and the tests given are to strengthen you. How can one walk in power and authority on higher levels with never having to access or operate in it on lower level attacks? In order to know the Word is alive and active we must be met with circumstances that try the Word in us (Psalm 105:19).

Conclusion: I am telling you whatever the Father allows to happen in your life has SIGNIFICANT PURPOSE, and you will get through the darkest nights if you do not faint while choosing to lean on the strength of Jesus (Isaiah 40:31). It's going through the fire with Jesus, but coming out as PURE GOLD (Job 23:10)!

Don't compare your life and path to others. Not everyone have the same calling, and not everyone walk in the same anointing. The anointing comes with a cost that many are not willing to pay for, and in order to walk in the kind of anointing with power and authority that shifts regions, you must persevere and endure to the end. You must choose to forgive, and keep a pure heart. You must choose a life of humility where it's Jesus way or no way with the understanding you desperately need Him. You must choose to hear and obey GOD first even when people disagree, or it doesn't make sense logically. There is no pleasing people when you're walking and running with God. You seek to please Him and Him only.

I'm not sure who this was for, but I knew it was imperative that I be transparent with you.

God bless yall. Please keep me and my son in your prayers as the Lord leads you. (A HUGE PUBLIC THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO HELPED US CROSS OVER🥹♥️)